Schlagwort: Death

Die (2)

Involuntarily I asked myself whether you were in pain, whether dying hurts, or whether it is simply as if life were pouring out, very gently, so that you became tired, closed your eyelids, and at some point, they no longer closed open. But it seemed like you weren’t in pain because you lay with your head in my lap, peaceful and calm. A few more times you lifted your heavy eyelids and looked at me as if you wanted to make sure that I was still there, there with you, not just physically present, because you felt that, but actually present and with you. And me was there. Just like I promised you the day you came to us, that I would never leave you alone, no matter what happened, until the last moment. I automatically thought of what it would be like to die myself. If you just fall asleep and don’t wake up, what should it affect me. Probably not me, but the people who care about me. For them it is also important to accept life, not only, but also. My own death probably affects me less, yours much more. I can’t console myself that there’s life after death or a resurrection or anything because I don’t believe in it. After all, aren’t all these notions too tempting to distract us from what we’re supposed to be doing, which is to live.

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Die (1)

It’s only been a short time. I will never forget those hours when I sat with you, on the mattress on the floor that you always loved to lie on, sat there with your head in my lap. Late afternoon fading into twilight and finally into night. Time had lost its supremacy, the power to drive me into action, for we both knew that it would not be long before you would fall asleep, forever. Although knowing is probably saying too much, because how can you know when the time has come? Where does dying begin that ends with death? It was a hunch, nothing more. It was likely, because you had reached an age that had already exceeded the statistically measured, average life expectancy. However, what do statistics say? And yet it felt like a farewell, one that would never be seen again. The balcony door was open. It was a warm day and children’s laughter sounded to us from the neighboring garden, happy, carefree children’s laughter, while I stroked you, not reflexively, but quite consciously, because I didn’t know how much longer I could do this, feel your body heat, towards you signal that I am with you until the last moment.

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Valentines Day

Anton was confident in his masculine qualities. The problem was just convincing the girls. Lederhose and a beer belly weren’t enough these days. Not even that you could drink 13 mugs of beer without having to fear further motor impairments. For a while he had really seriously considered whether he shouldn’t stop with the women altogether, but the very nature he boasted about, namely the male nature, stood in his way in this noble project. Not to forget that he also had a long rod with which he was able to land the biggest fish and a well-dimensioned shotgun, which he shot at every high-seat binge, in the truest sense of the word. In addition, he still had a talent for craftsmanship and was rarely the loser in a fight. In a word, a whole man, upon the appearance of which all the girls had to lick all ten fingers.

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I’ve seen it

For many years, even decades, I lived in blissful ignorance. Of course, I heard from time to time that our fellow creatures in the animal exploitation industry were not doing so well. „It won’t be that bad,“ I managed to convince myself. Advertising made a significant contribution to this. You saw and see happy cows running around in the pasture, cute little pigs digging in the ground or alert chickens scratching in the ground. Somehow it was also conveyed that the AMA seal of approval stood for animal welfare, even if the AMA denies this. That was a pure figment of my imagination. Too bad actually. But because it was shown so often, I thought to myself, this is the reality, and everyone feels the same as in the pretty little pictures or in the homely videos. Except for the few exceptions that also exist. But just as some so-called domestic animals are poorly kept, so it is occasionally the case with so-called farm animals. Of course, not wanting to see is also a certain protective mechanism.

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Left alone

Timo curled up very tightly in the farthest corner of the shack in which he had been locked. The first snowflakes rolled gently down and he froze terribly. But much worse than the cold was the loneliness, the terrible fear of never being able to see his mother again. But he was only in the world for a very short time. Shouldn’t he snuggle up with his mom, drink with her? He curled up a little more. As far as it went. Well, his shack was thickly padded with straw, but the cold still stayed and even the thickest layer of straw didn’t help against the loneliness. Especially not against fear. But what happened? Why did he have to be there? He heard his mom calling. She couldn’t be far away. Still, he was here, and she was there.

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Blood, Blood everywhere

We sit in the cave and stare at the wall, not tied up, at least not by physical shackles, but held by conventions, social agreements and apparent inevitability. We do not move so that we can give ourselves the illusion that we are bound by shackles. Only when we moved would we notice that there are no shackles. Illusion of a perfect world in view of the downfall, because the pictures tell us. No, it’s not bad, it’s good. We just have to keep going like we did before. Do not let yourself be distracted from the previous path that was successful. All live in prosperity. All have a refrigerator and a car and a television. If you don’t have it, it’s your own fault. A path of success if you just sit well and stay true to the illusion.

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No Meat From Abroad

“We don’t want to see meat from abroad on our supermarket shelves!” Is the tenor, “Not even at the trusted butcher, who you know anyway that the animal lived happily before it was sausage and filleted. You know everything. The animals in Austria are doing well, very well in fact. After all, we are among the countries with the highest animal welfare standards in the world, as announced by Minister Köstinger, Minister of Agriculture in our beautiful country. And she must know. So it’s also true. Because politicians never lie.

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Human, do you know what are you doing to me?

Human, do you know what it feels like when your family is destroyed?

Can you understand how I suffer
When I get pregnant every year
Just so that my child will be snatched away from me
My girl they put in the calf crate
Where I can hear them
Call out to her
And yet I can’t take care of her
So close,
Forever lost
My son,
whom they put in the van,
Unsupervised,
One more baby
To send him thousands of kilometers to his death.

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Day of the Mother

Mother’s Day – Mother’s Day, her special day
Breakfast is made for her, optionally brought to bed
Ham roll, soft egg, coffee with milk
„How nice it is to have my children around me,“ she thinks,
“To be with each other, maybe we will go on a trip”.
And while she is allowed to be a mother
i.e. being allowed to be with her children,
does she not think about it
that there are millions of mothers in the world
where the togetherness at this very moment
is denied with their children,
forced to give birth
never be allowed to be mothers
for ham roll, soft egg and coffee with milk.

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